In my introductory post to my Love-e-logue, I mentioned the intuitive reading with Alisabeth Shelman from The Cosmic Womb. Before we started, Alise asked me what my intention was or what I hoped to gain from the reading. I told her I wanted to unblock my heart chakra.
Every time I did any chakra meditations I would always experience ice cold when I got to my heart. Literally, I could place my hand over my heart and feel ice. I had no idea why, because I don’t consider myself to be a heartless person by any stretch of the imagination. Yet I even had several energy workers tell me my heart chakra was blocked!
“Excellent intention!” exclaimed Alise, and we dove right into the reading.
Within short order, she told me I struggled greatly with being human. That I would much rather dwell in pure energy than function as flesh and blood. Whether you believe in the esoteric or not, at the very least this was a powerful metaphor for me. All my life I have focused on imagination and creation, as opposed to interaction and engagement. In short, accomplishments over relationships.
At the end of my life, do I want my tombstone to read “she accomplished a lot” or “she cared deeply”?
Then it occurred to me — and yes, I am slow on the uptake — relationships ARE the ultimate act of creation.
By golly, I do believe I feel that ice melting.